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Lies You Tell Yourself

I was extremely convinced that this time would be different.  Since I am finding my time on Twitter increasingly dissatisfying, I told myself that I would start trying to blog more. It was about getting into the habit again, more than doing it right. I let myself be defined by product when I am someone who believes wholehearted in process. Why do I have these two sides of myself? When I look back at earlier versions of this blog, it is so refreshing to have captured moments and memories, to have timestamps on my mental records. Yet I constantly tell myself I don't have anything to say. Time passes and things change and I wish I had a better record of the ways that these things developed or withered. It is easier to come to these spaces at moments of extremes, triumph or despair. But it is the mundane moments I think about the most. The things lost between the items that have official records. Words and phrases and themes and discoveries that feel monumentally important for a few da

What's The Point?

  I was going through a series of old blog posts and realized how nice it was to have regular ways to structure the passage of time. I probably should have thought of this earlier, especially since time has a unique bending quality over the past year. There are times when the forced isolation has reminded me of times in the past, when my children were young and I was single and stressed. And when I looked over my blog, I was reminded of those days as well. And how this space serves as a record for some of those memories. This is not the first time I have looked back at my blog and felt like I was doing myself a disservice by not keeping up this space, but it may be the time that I actually stick with keeping it up.  I put a lot of pressure on myself that this should be a certain way and it was kind of refreshing to go back and realize that it can be whatever I need and want it to be. I started as a book blogger, and I probably won’t talk about books as often as I once did, but there ar